God Bless This Night....

To you whom I love,

Thank you for your patience and caring. You just don't know how much you mean to me. It's been more than four months since we started this relationship. And after all these times, it seems like only yesterday that I told you how much I love you.

Sure, we've got trials and all that, but in all these barriers now, I still am thankful. We are in a different and complicated situation, I know, but in due time, I just hope that everything will be alright.

In due time, I hope that our families will soon accept how things are just the way they are. I hope my parents will get to accept that I too am capable of loving and being loved. All these times, they do not have an idea that I am loving someone far away. But after all these, I feel like I want to burst and let me know the truth. But it just hurts that I know they want something else for me at the moment. We have personal problems that I know they want solved before I engage into something serious.

It's just confusing, knowing that I too have feelings. I also want to be an obedient child and all, but get this: I also am capable of feeling this, just like the other people do. It just so happens that we have to settle things first in our family and that if I do something else, it will be just disastrous as the stereotyped incidences back here.

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To you whom I love so much,

Please forgive me for I am so impatient sometimes. I also am getting child-like with you for I am fond of cuddling you though just virtually. I understand that we are so far away and that you are doing whatever you can to keep this love alive. I appreciate your simple gestures that show how much you love me. For that, I thank you.

I know you have responsibilities already and that you have already gone through different experiences that make it more complicated for the outside world to understand us at first. But I still am hopeful and positive that soon, we will also achieve what we long for.

It does get hard each time I think about how we are today. But what can we do? Instead of moping around all day, I just try to think of other things. I just spend my time doing all sorts of things to avoid the thoughts that just make me crazy.

In the meantime, I still am thankful that I have you. (And I am wondering if you also really feel the same??.. hmm).. I just hope that everything we have prayed for will come true (soon??)

Love,

Monmon's Mom