Happy Days are Just Within Reach

Today is such a great day. I met my baby again (for the 2nd time) and he met my mother. He went to our home together with a friend and we just spent the time to get to know each other better.

How happy it is for me to know that my mother also likes his personality. Thus I hope that we will eventually be 'legal.'

In fact, it is also very sweet of him to come by, considering the fact that he is from a long distance, away from me physically. But that does not separate us. Our love holds us stronger than ever.

We are turning five months in our relationship now and do hope that we will last forever.

I have faith in us as much as I have trust in you.

I LOVE YOU BABY... Happy 5th Monthsary...

Today was great. Hope to see you again.

How Time Flies

Dear Friend, Monmon's Dad, Mama,

Today is such a busy day. I haven't even noticed that it is already nighttime -- time to hit the notch and fly off to another destination soon. I also did not realize that it was time for me to press some keys and let some people know how I am doing all along. But alas, I guess time really flies so fast today that I am unaware of its repercussions.

First thing in the morning, I got to meet lots of people already to apply for some documents. Well, this must be crazy, for every time I see the hype in the everyday encounters I go into, it just brings me a high. I feel like I am in a world that's up for goodness.

Unfortunately, it's not always the case. But still, I remain hopeful...

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Alright, so Monmon's dad came right through a sleeping stint that was long enough for me but short enough for him who has only a day to spare for a simple nap. I can imagine my baby, with his fresh from the throat voice saying, "Mornin baby..." He is ever so sweet, never failing to greet me with a fresh morning's love. I just am happy with his simple gestures, but yes, still, that is just what I am supposed to feel since we are really far away, far from the reality of kissing and hugging so tight in person.

But I guess that's what true love is about. As long as the love is around, there is no stopping us.

Now, I can just remember how we had this discussion about our long distance relationship and how we are going to survive. It seems impossible, but we are 4 months in this now. This seems to be crazy, but yes, we still are not giving up. I was about to, some weeks ago. I do not know why, but it seems like I lost hope that we are going to get away from that despair or longing.

Again, he never let that happen. Or so I think... I sometimes feel like this is not the right thing to do, but on the other hand, I just know that I have the right to feel this way. And now Monmon's dad just keeps on reminding me that we will soon be out of this dreadful situation. (I just hope so).

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My horoscope today talks about aggression. Well, it might be true, but on the contrary, that must be just how things are today. Or at least, people around me are just so "right," that they feel like they know everything. Or they feel that I did so. But what can I do? I have always been obeying them, and it also gets tiring all along.

Well, not exactly everyday do I get tired like this. Sometimes, I tolerate this. But the nagging in some people just get inside of me and I just wish that I'd soon get the chance to make it out to prove that I can be as independent as one should really be.

This is just so challenging...

~ Monmon's Mom

God Bless This Night....

To you whom I love,

Thank you for your patience and caring. You just don't know how much you mean to me. It's been more than four months since we started this relationship. And after all these times, it seems like only yesterday that I told you how much I love you.

Sure, we've got trials and all that, but in all these barriers now, I still am thankful. We are in a different and complicated situation, I know, but in due time, I just hope that everything will be alright.

In due time, I hope that our families will soon accept how things are just the way they are. I hope my parents will get to accept that I too am capable of loving and being loved. All these times, they do not have an idea that I am loving someone far away. But after all these, I feel like I want to burst and let me know the truth. But it just hurts that I know they want something else for me at the moment. We have personal problems that I know they want solved before I engage into something serious.

It's just confusing, knowing that I too have feelings. I also want to be an obedient child and all, but get this: I also am capable of feeling this, just like the other people do. It just so happens that we have to settle things first in our family and that if I do something else, it will be just disastrous as the stereotyped incidences back here.

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To you whom I love so much,

Please forgive me for I am so impatient sometimes. I also am getting child-like with you for I am fond of cuddling you though just virtually. I understand that we are so far away and that you are doing whatever you can to keep this love alive. I appreciate your simple gestures that show how much you love me. For that, I thank you.

I know you have responsibilities already and that you have already gone through different experiences that make it more complicated for the outside world to understand us at first. But I still am hopeful and positive that soon, we will also achieve what we long for.

It does get hard each time I think about how we are today. But what can we do? Instead of moping around all day, I just try to think of other things. I just spend my time doing all sorts of things to avoid the thoughts that just make me crazy.

In the meantime, I still am thankful that I have you. (And I am wondering if you also really feel the same??.. hmm).. I just hope that everything we have prayed for will come true (soon??)

Love,

Monmon's Mom